Mom Is Feeling Pretty Bad! #CancerSucks

Mom Is Feeling Pretty Bad!

My mom is feeling pretty bad from the effects of her Chemotherapy she had last week I also have to say that #CancerSucks!  She has a really severe case of Thrush, Severe lower back pain that’s constant, Nausea, general flu feeling, but 99% worse than normal!  It makes me so sad to hear her in pain like she is.  I been thinking about her constantly, I want to call her more, but since she’s not feeling good, I kinda been waiting for her to call me.  I just want to let her rest if she is, I will text and she calls when she can.  I talked to her for about 1.5 hours today via 2 calls.  She was finally able to get some meds called in for her mouth, she has the nausea meds and lortab for pain.  But she can’t eat and when she can there is nothing she wants.  I wish I could just go live there with her, I’d cook and make her food when she’s ready.  It’d be sugar/carb free too!

I also know I told you guys I’d be back here doing my videos and so forth, but I am just not yet ready to start again. Most the time lately I just been a mess. I haven’t even been playing as much on Facebook.  I do have to work though so I keep pushing the work out. Even my kitchen sink is full of dishes. I just feel so slumped and sad, I just wish things would get back to normal and not be so painful for anyone!

Anyways I just wanted to update and say I am still here. I have actually gained, but I’m not more than 260 lbs though! 🙂 I won’t ever be, I keep staying in between 250-259 lbs. I know I actually made it all the way down to 246.4 lbs, but shit happens! I’m not mad or hangry at myself, just hoping for better days ahead!

Thanks for reading. I will be back here eventually I do promise!