It’s been some work lately for me to stay on track. I cannot tell a lie, it’s just been a total B#($* to say the least. I have been up and down and up and down. I don’t know what to do with myself. I am going to do my best to get back on track. It’s not that expensive to buy LCHF, but sometimes it is. I need my cream, I only want Land O Lakes and I don’t always have $6 for that. Some of the items are pretty pricey, bacon and good beef are the other ones that can cost a pretty penny. I love buying Chicken, but the brand they have near to me is garbage and so rubbery, I’m forced to buy the other that costs $12 for 5 breasts that aren’t very big.
Since the last, probably 8 months things in general around here have been hard. From this to that. I cant go into a lot of it, and it’s NO excuse. I’m the excuse, I could have eaten eggs and cheaper LCHF but sometimes, I get tired of them. Even cream cheese is freaking expensive when you’re broke.
I have to get back on board though, I can feel myself feeling worse and worse every passing day. I don’t like it! I felt so much better not only physically and mentally, but when I try to set my mind towards that direction it’s like, I happen again! I sabotage myself. I can’t keep doing it. I have been trying to read more about diabetes because that scares me more than being fat. I have been getting boils again and what I read says that uncontrolled diabetes can cause this. That Scares ME! But does it scare me enough? When something is right in my face I can’t resist it anymore. That’s my struggle.
The fact that I can make literally anything is not helpful either! LOL But I have some stuff coming from NuNaturals and I cannot wait to get back on track. I did need some things and this will help. When you don’t have those little things that help you through this sometimes, for some of us it’s a problem. I don’t know, I guess it’s mental! lol Woohooo I’m food crazy!
Anyway, just an update. I’m just under 300 again. I have failed myself miserably. But I can change it! I just have to do it! I want to do it!